..me? I know, I know! It's been so long. Well I have internet in my apartment..kind of. So let's all thank my neighbor for anonymously letting me connect. Now what was this blog created for? Creativity? You know from the past that is exactly what you will get. I'm not going to make promises or anything, I'm just going to post as much as I can here and there. Welcome to my morning by the way..and this morning I read: John 15:5I am the vine and ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. Yep, it's a short one. But hey, I lived maaaaany years not abiding in Christ, and I found it to be true, I can nothing. It's only when I'm living and walking in the Spirit in obedience that I even truelly experience joy, love and life. Nothing is perfect or easy, it's just not a struggle anymore. Coming up..a quick view at some live music I've been shooting..stay tuned..
"Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." (John 14:6)
This is what I believe. I do not believe that there is any other way to God. I do not believe that if you think being loving in life and you call God "love" and all you have to do is stay on some path of love is true. It might be what you believe - but what I'm saying is I will never say to you "If that is what you believe that is your path to finding God/Heaven." Because for me to say that would be a lie, and to deny my faith, the very core of who I am. I understand some people do not believe what I do, that is their choice. But I believe that we are all sinners, and God sent his son, Jesus Christ to pay for that sin (even before we ever commit it) on the cross and that if you repent of your sin and accept Jesus Christ as your personal Saviour that you will be filled with the Holy Spirit (which can never be taken from you - he doesn't just move out ;) ) and when you die you will enter into Heaven's gates and spend an eternity with God and Christ. To have a relationship with God that can not be seperated by sin, the world or space or time. To have an eternity with him and those who chose him as well. That's what I believe. And I can will say it here!! Or anywhere, but definitely here on my website and profile!!
Obviously I am a YouTube-er! :) So I stumble across things that make me laugh, cry and puke(millions of tiny baby spiders on it's Momma's back and when she moves all these tiny spiders shift around on her!). BUT this makes me a bit weary. A woman who has this amazing gift to speak to people and they listen is saying - God doesn't exist "for everyone" but for those who believe. If you believe God is love then you believe in love and you are right and the person who believes in God is right. I am not going off of things that people have said about Oprah - I'm going off of things that I've seen Oprah say with her own mouth. There is no consistancy - one segment she says that God is different for each person then she says "God is. God is a feeling..not a belief and if you think God is something to believe in that isn't it - it's God, a feeling."
Whether you believe in God or not - this kind of "non belief system" is DANGEROUS. For one - it takes away any conviction what so ever, without conviction - there is no remorse, there is no guilt, there is nothing to say what is right or wrong. What you feel will be right. If I feel it is okay to molest a small child then that is what I feel - what you feel may be different and that is okay - but this is what I feel is okay and I am right in doing that.(Oh btw that is NOT what I feel haha, but you get what I'm saying..) What about the person who raped and murdered a little boy or girl, they sit on trial and say "It's what I believe, I believe it's okay to do" if what you believe is true to you is right, then what's to stop a judge from saying "according to what this man says he is not wrong." Those of you who profess Christ as your Saviour - now would be a great time to stand up and say what you believe and not be afraid, if God is with us, who can be against us?
I have many many friends who do not believe what I do. But they all know what I believe and it's clear to them why I believe it, and I've never forced my beliefs on them(oh and this is not force, seeing as you are reading this by choice and it's my website and profile). I think that's important, but what I want to do now - is expand. I would like to expand this realisation to people who perhaps don't know me well or not at all. I want to be someone who there is not a shadow of a doubt that Christ is my Saviour and there is something different about me - to all people. I want it to be obvious and I want to do that in such a loving way that God's love penetrates every aspect of my life and effects everyone around me. Even if that means I'm a goober or the "the God lady" (as one kid from my town used to call me) or a goody-two-shoes. I'm cool with that.
Anyway! Feel free to comment and say what you want - but you know my response already.
One more thing, logically speaking. If you don't believe what I do, would you think my faith was very firm or strong if I said "it's just one way" or "it's right for me but not for you"..what kind of weak faith cannot save the ones you love but only yourself - if I didn't believe in God, I would have a lot more respect for someone who did fully than someone who did halfway, or weakly.
If you are faint at heart or get scared easily, don't continue to read this post.
Ok so, I was hanging with friends and there was this other girl I guess I knew of but wasn't mates with. She was blonde with a roundish face. She was pacing in a door way and I heard a low pitched grunt..I looked at her and said something about my house being full of those who wish to praise the Lord. And she just stared at me and I was like "Hey come here.." and she kept staring so I walked towards her and the door slammed in front of her although no one touched it. Everyone else because frightened and a couple other friends of faith looked alarmed. So I guess we decided to perform an exorcism. My knowledge of demons led me to praise the Lord and mantion his power over and over again, each time the girl grunting like it was painful to hear. Then I crossed her arms (the others were watching in fear almost trembling, not knowing what to do) and held her tight (like a straight jacket) I had held her as tight as I could in the process she was grabbing my hands and her nails were ripping into my wrists causing them to bleed. I asked me friends to grab a chair or rope or anything to keep her from fleeing and controling the situation. The sounds of her grunts were so real. As I held her I told her that the Lord was with me and I was holder her and I was praying over her (this "demon" had immense strength) as she weakened a little I asked "What is your name?" she grunted and said something I couldn't understand, then I said, "In the name of the Lord and Saviour tell me your name." and she laughed and said her name was Asheroth. Then I paryed some more and she fell to the ground..and I thought evertyhing was ok, but only and hour later she started acting funny again, she/he told me I cast him into the dog and he moved back into her body. I then woke up.
I believe with all my heart that Easter is a celebration of Jesus Christ rising from the dead. Specifially, because he was crucified for my sin, and the sin of everyone. And that he did this, so that I can live eternally, and never have seperation from Him and all his glory and what he's created for me. I believe that this is Salvation and this eternity is available to me if I accept that I'm a sinner and that Christ paid my debt, and I need him in my life. I believe this and I've accepted. Today I celebrate that life he gave for me and to me.
